LESTAT THE VAMPIRE

Trata-se do que realmente eu quero na vida. Ontem me deparei com uma onda de tristeza que me trouxe a pensar se o que eu faço e o que eu quero serão realmente reais e realizados. Bom, vou começar então dizendo o que eu desejo através do infected mush room:

I wish to give, to take, to make, to check, I wanna see it happenI want to see, to be, the one that plays the game without no fears and regretsI want to know you, better than I know myselfI want to feel the end, and enjoy the consequenceI'm playing the gamethe one that'll take me to my endI'm waiting for the rainto wash who I amI want to move, to loose, to take the grooves, and to give it all backI want to take the time rewind, and to kick it right from the startto be unknown and all alone, lose the kind that are behindto start a new play by myself and to give the best I haveI'm playing the gamethe one that'll take me to my endI'm waiting for the rainto wash who I am

Bom, dois anos desde a última postagem. Não me perguntem aonde estive, talvez tenha muito mais medo de dizer que não me lembro do quelhes dizer onde realmente estive. Pela primeira vez posto algo em português, tive vontade de fazê-lo, talvez continue, talvez retorne ao inglês. Estou cansado, apesar destes anos de dormência, mas feliz, pelo menos esta é a primeira impressão que tenho. Pretendo fazer minha aparição ser pública, mas nem imagino quem possa interessar tal aparição. De qualquer forma, obrigado por me visitar, tentarei ser mais criativo ao noticiar meu dia.

Saudosamente

Andlestat

Arouse from the ashes… 6 months

Good time to review my concept of life and all the stuff that I want for the future.

What can I say to you, my beloved reader? I was not sleeping; I was not frightened shrunk, enclosed in an ordinary alley…. In contrast… I was in a terrible but necessary struggle, a battle that defied all my patience, my strength and mainly... the thing that the mankind calls “Love”
Anyway... I come back... You must be curious about some things and maybe some questions about my strength or wisdom may pass through your head... I am not stronger than before, maybe, I learned a thing or twice... what is necessary that you know is just ... I am not the same!
And the better than this... I am...

In The Shadows
by Rasmus
No sleep, no sleep until I'm done finding the answer
Won't stop, won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer
Sometimes I feel like going down and I'm so disconnected
Somehow I know that I'm haunted to be wanted
I've been watchin', I've been waitin'In the shadows for my time
I've been searchin', I've been livin'
For tomorrows all my lifeOou-oou oou-oou in the shadows
Oou-oou oou-oou in the shadows
They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their save
Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
I've been watchin', I've been waitin'In the shadows for my time
I've been searchin', I've been livin' For tomorrows all my lifeLately,
I've been walking, walking in circules Watching, waiting for something
Feel me, touch me, heal me Come take me higherI've been watchin',
I've been waitin'In the shadows for my time
I've been searchin', I've been livin' For tomorrows all my life
I've been watchin', I've been waitin',I've been searchin',
I've been livin'For tomorrows
Oou-oou oou-oou in the shadows
Oou-oou oou-oou in the shadowsI
've been waitin'

You know when a thing is wrong, even way you do that ... Can you figure it? Well, I don't know why... Sometimes I just think that it must be happened anyway.

Well, today we got a tired class of Security in International Relations. It should be very interesting... But it became so full, complex and stressed.

A meeting not very fruitful with my beloved mates of IOSC, but at least we arrived at a common denominator. AHHHH!!! I almost forgot... Flavio made a new chear's slogan to IOSC... Please don't ask me what is that! LOL

A good thing happened... I found the lost CD : Angra Angels Crying! Yes!!!! To celebrate that....

Carry On


Simple minded brain
for now you succumb
Nothing changes your way
This world insists to be the same
based on our mistakes
The flowers fade along the road
Don't blindfold your eyes,
so loneliness becomes the law
of a senseless life

Follow your steps and you will find
The unknown ways are in your mind
Need nothing else than just your pride
to get there... [go!]

Now we have to face another day
You won't be alone
This life is forcing us to stay
- For how long?
Cold is the wind and thunder struck
on a stormy night
But can't you see, I'm by your side
We are marching on!...

Follow your steps and you will find
The unknown ways are in your mind
Need nothing else than just your pride
to get there...
So, carry on,
There's a meaning to life
Which someday we may find...
Carry on, it's time to forget
The remains from the past, to carry on

Follow your steps and you will find
The unknown ways are in your mind
Need nothing else than just your pride
to get there...

So, carry on,
There's a meaning to life
Which someday we may find...
Carry on, it's time to forget
The remains from the past

So, carry on,
There's a meaning to life
Which someday we may find...
Carry on, it's time to forget
The remains from the past

Carry on, it's time to forget
The remains from the past, to carry on
The remains from the past, to carry on
The remains from the past...

Well, I should not been wrote that previous entry of yesterday if I went to home before.

What I really mean is that yesterday... The night were very funny! How could I imagine that!

I arrived at home and Flavio and me decided to go to Cinema to see "The Last Samurai".

We decided to take a milkshake of ovomaltine, but... In the middle of the lane... He asked me: what do you think? Some bear? I said... Not beer... I don't like it! Come on Anderson?! A glass of wine so?! Yes!!!! A glass of wine and a caipirinha in 20 minutes, seeing Flavio having a bad time eating a spiced ACARAJE! HAHAHAHHA!!!!

We laughed a lot... And I confess that I drank so fast that I was hilarious!

While the movie?! Fantastic! A great opportunity to stare the Eugenios first texts.

It made me forget a little somethings... And if you ask me how I am doing? The answer must be...

Hand In My Pocket


I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
An' what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
cos I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
An' What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
Coz I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other is flicking a cigarette
An' what is all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
Coz I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
An' what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
What it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab...

Models and simulations _ a crap subject of these semester... At least, I will attend at Javier's class.

Three texts to read to Friday, a book and another text to 12th ( waging a paper to that ) and almost none disposal to start it.

waiting for something more interesting tomorrow... Well, I know... There are days that are just common ones... Without any spice... That is it!

to be continued to the poems line that I started yesterday... Today I left in the space below my favorite poem of Robert Frost.

Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening
by Robert Frost.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.